Snack packs and public urination.

Lauren just left.
its sad sitting in my tiny room with out someone sitting behind me saying, "holly,holly,holly,holly....holly,holly.....watch this" then throwing a stress ball at my head.

That void will be instead filled with the hoards of strawberry snack packs i just brought, they were on special and it seemed smarter to me then buying sandwich stuff. by smarter of course I mean delicious..er.

what to say about toga night? well .. it was so crowded you could barely move, being pressed into walls and having drink spilt on, being ignored by people I thought I was getting to like, sending way to many texts and sitting alone in the smokers area ranting into the air about our age demographic. plus the day after, being today, my mouth feel like one of those pub ashtrays half filled with beer and nut shells.

On the plus side saw Julia and Amelia which took the ebb off the homesickness. band was pretty okay, and I perfected my technique of stealing the beers of unsuspecting smokers, therefore getting thoroughly drunk enough to deal with the hoards of people. plus lauren bought this amazing subway melt. made the night.

I just have so much trouble talking to people the two conversations with went like this,

Guy ; "can I ... uhh can I bum a smoke."
me; "yes"
guy; "ohh there not menthol's are they?? there bad for my sperm"
me; "how unlucky for you"
Guy; "oh and me kids"
Me ; "God forbid"

effectively loosing out on the group conversation in that one, between you and me, not a big loss.

(this next one happened three times with the same guy)

guy- hey i like your toga!
me- did we used to talk on msn?
guy- ehh no?
me- oh can I have a sip?
guy- "sure" *hands me jug of beer
Me- "MSN" *disappears into the crowd with jug of beer.

end of night made it home, after wandering around on my own for an hour, by some miracle bumped into Lauren who also was wandering around on her own.

Still no job. No money, not really liking here. missing my guitar. regretting drinking.

But at least I can finally say with firm resolution, I do not like going out, not clubing and and junk anyway. If there was a good place for drinks that wasnt crowded with a good band I mean I would love that, but as I always suspected, the uni socical life was not made for me.

anyway check out the toga party pictures on my facebook.

ill write more if anything actually ever happenes which I doubt.